(Mart Diehl)
1. THE LONELY FACE
Watching my face in the cold window pane
As it drowns in the spirals of a cigarette
Yet drowning in a silent sea of tears
Speaking hopeless eyes, feeling moveless lips
Listening to the music on the radio
I can feel people dancing
I'd like to dance, I'd like to sing
But not alone in an empty choir
Of this lonely face in the window
So where are you?
Where are you now?...
2. AS THE WALLS COME TUMBLIN' DOWN
The border of a wasteland-land, invisible for all
A gutter on a rightman's hand, no fly to fly above
Just a shattered butterfly, he's on the fly
He's out to die, my butterfly...
Good-bye!
Look at him he's sitting there upon the multi-coloured wall
The wall of fear that's painted by
The endless pain of young nen died
While travelling ahead, they are...
Dead!
Look at him, he's sitting there
Moveless - breathless - dead!
Approach, approach, my little
Multi-coloured friend!
I can see an old man, he's not knowing what to be
I cannot understand him, 'cos he's the mighty king
I can see an old man climbing on a hop-hope tree
I cannot understand him, but he wants to be the queen
...in a wasteland-land???
3. MY LITTLE COMPANION
Looking through the cold glass of the window
I can see the trees as they rush bye-bye
And I have no real chance to catch them
Suddenly the train stands still
And I saw her standing there
Lovely waving on the dirty platform
Did she recognize me?
Did she realize me?
Beside me the good young man
He used to be my companion
And yet he acts as my escort
Suffering from muscle atrophy
And yet he seems so strong...
I know I have to leave the train
To escape from my compartment
I have to catch her smile
I have to kiss her file
But my weak and feeble body
Hampers me in doing it
Above me the good young man
He used to take me out by force
And yet the doors are all locked up
Suffering from muscle atrophy
And yet he seems so strong...
Suddenly the train sets out
And I saw her standing there
Lovely waving on the dirty platform
Did she recognize me?
Did she realize me?
4. PEARS AND A GRAIN OF SAND
A tree of pears is standing in a wilderness of broken men
The pears are only puppets that are foolished, dressed as kings
The pears on trees are growing while the sand is turning dry
And every grain of sand will never see a reason why
Why do we turn dry?
I don't know why
Cry - and start to cry
I want to make the black clouds cry
I want them to be sweet not dry
So that all grains of sand may grow
Like in a Monty-Python-Show
And me I know what I will be
A shining great red rose
That looks upon the other ones
With a held-up smiling nose
Look at them, look at those
I'm the mighty great red rose...
5. MY UNFORTUNATELY INCOMPLETED YEARNING
(IT'S NOT OVER, BABY!)
The last cigarette get's smashed
by the power of ten broken fingers
The empty bottle gets thrown
Into the corner of a broken heart
Look at the splinters how lovely their reflections dance
On my naked body - dance, dance, dance, you cool-fool body!
My feelings concentrated on nothing
But your body, your flesh, your breast
Those mighty tits, it was them, it was their fault
How they tease me, how they toil me, go out!
Leave me behind, no longer alone with you
And so remainng alone with myself
I leave in hope for none
For though my kingdom shall return
That's now for ever gone
Return, return, return my love!
Return and be my star
Return, return, return my love!
Be guided now and far
6. THE GUILTY TREE
I can see a young man in the trees
Listing to the wind
I can see his wife, his family
As they laugh and dance and sing
But through the looking-glass of love
I can see his faded tears
As they fall upon a broken wall
That many tears had smeared
It was no war, no revolution that broke the wall to pieces
The roots had been implanted long before
It was them who splntered the cold grey stone
It was them, it was their work
7. BENJAMIN, THE FOX
It's me, I am the fox
Can't you see me as I'm standing over there
Below the rocks
Benjamin is my name
And I know I'll always be
The one who is to blame
But in fact I'm not
Half as bad as in the shallow stories
That you write a lot
It's me, I am the fox
Can't you help me to refute this antiquated
Prejudice
8. ANOTHER MIRROR? ANOTHER FACE?
The time it has come to see it was wrong
To comprehend that I'm my own mistake
And the mirror answers in lonely tears
The questions beeing asked by my lonely eyes
I'm no longer the one who is in the right
I believe that I never have been
I'm no longer the one to tell you to fight
And I'm sure that I can't
My fight had an end before I was born
Being born into a well-made bed
Everything dressed in childish blue
Everything cleaned, so i had nothing to do
The way that I went was planned long before
The way that I went had been gone without core
It's always my way, gone without me
It's always my way, lost in my dreams
9. THE RAINBOW SONG
Under the rainbow of oblivion
The darkness apeears in motley colours
And so we sit here, amused by the tears
That no one knew of
They fell in silent secretness
And now get baptized by rememberance
DREADFUL STUPID
Is written on the stamp
'Cos under the rainbow of oblivion
The darkness gets drawn by motley colours
It's always the same rainbow
This telltale creature of imagination
This frivolous feeling of ingravity
Rainbow - where are you shing to?
Rainbow - where are you leading me?
Rainbow - when will I find your end?
I follow into your great wide world of fantasy
10. THE ALTERNATIVE ENTRANCE
Hand in hand they stood on the roof
Singing songs of love and life
But before jumping down the shouted out loud
WE'RE HAPPY NOW, ...!
11. SON OF HIS MOTHER (AND VICE VERSA)
Mama, I need you now
Come here and take my pen
Write the lovesongs that you love
Don't be shy, just take me now
Drink all of my sweet wine
'Cos everything I have for you
It comes from deep inside
Mama, I want you now
Lay down, receive my juice
Feel the lovethings that I love
Just be wild, don't leave me now
Your womb shall now be mine
'Cos everything I give to you
I claim from you instead
Mama, I need you now!
Mama, I want you now!...
(Stefan Wetterau)
1. PREFACE
Il y a seulement les sentiments essentiels
Qui guide oł fourvoye les hommes
Il n'existera jamais l'homme
Qui comprendra les sentiments des gens
2. WHAT AM I DOING HERE: I: QUESTIONS
I feel like a child
As I lie here in this dark, cold tent
The storm is still approaching
Will tear my shaky home to rags
Oh, what shall I do?
And I ask myself
How and when did I come here at all?
And while the end is near
My mind gives me this grieving recall
Oh, what shall I do?
3. THE WELL-BRED STUPID FELLOW
With a piercing scream I came into this world
Hurt from the first minute on
Today it's me who I really hurt
Now that my feelings have gone
Grew up in a scatheless world
Far away from pain
No contact to the land outside
Where the others racked their brains
And I didn't notice at all
That I erected the tent
I didn't even notice that
Some others lended their hands
On the whole I was very lucky
My parents spared no pain
They gave me all I needed
To keep their image clean
But still something was missing
Something I didn't know
Suppose, unfounded ignorance
Is mistake enough
And I didn't notice at all
That I erected the tent
I didn't even notice that
Some others lended their hands
4. THIS IS THE WORLD
Stuck at my tent
It looked guite warm
I only had to creep into
Although I was curious
Felt the allurement
I wanted to close the door
Boys passed by
Just like I was one
And they took me away with them
They made me forget my tent
Leave it far behind
Just for an instant
We built huts, were warriors
Observed people, were spies
Played soccer
Misused knockers
Ran away
They really made me forget
My tent behind the fence
I only ran with them
Sometimes chased by men
Ran away
But even we grew older
And the path we ran along
Became wider
Became brighter
Difficult...
5. UNEXPLORED SPHERES
An alteration of our bodies
Not noticed all at once
A thorough new experience
Not noticed all at once
We came to a temple
On the inside red and white
The door was wide open
Without fear we stepped inside
Suddenly my friends were gone
She was standing on the other end
As if in trance I crossed the room
She was reaching for my hand
It was love
It was new
And even if I wanted to
There was nothing I could do
She took me in her arms
The world around us disappeared
Everything was full of light
When I held her, oh, so near
I forgot my friends outside
Believed they had these feelings, too
The tent was just a memory
A forced out, fading truth
It was love
It was new
And even if I wanted to
There was nothing I could do
6. SUDDEN CHANGE OF WHEATHER
There was a big celebration
In the white temple's grove
I'hey all were so happy
They couldn't get enough
Went the entangled paths
Among huge trees along
I held you really tight
And listened to the songs
Sat down under a tree
A large, strong lime-tree
Watched the others dancing
On the meadow (on the meadow...)
Suddenly she got up
And ran to the others
All at once she was gone
Far away I heard the thunder
She came back just once again
And tried to explain it to me
Perhaps I was deaf meanwhile
Somehow she talked strange to me
Desperate she looked down on me
The very last kiss I ever got
She heaved a low, almost sad sigh
She turned around and went away
Saw her in the arms of another
This bastard grinned contemptible
Above me the tree had changed
The branch of a weeping willow beat me in the face
7. A RUN WITH CLEAR DESTINATION
I got up, started to run
Leaving the dancing behind
I ran like hell
Leaving the dancing behind
There was this last remaining thought
Back to the tent
It was the only thing left in my head
Back to the tent
Behind me the t'riunder rolled
The storm drew near
It got darker and darker
Only me, the fear, the tears
I ran - ran like never before
I ran - ran where it all began
I had been disappointed
My friends had left me all
Whole worlds had collapsed
When my girl went away
The world had become grey
No colours anymore
All in all so hideous
Me right in the middle of it all
Behind me the thunder rolled
The storm drew near
It got darker and darker
Only me, the fear, the tears
I ran - ran like never before
I ran - ran where it all began
Stop!
There stood a man on the edge of the path
He stopped me by clutching me
He wore a long white overall
With his forefinger he pointed at me
'Listen, son, what I say to you!
Soon your way is gonna end
You're not gonna realize it at once
You know your end is gonna be - death!'
He let me loose, he let me go
I felt uneasy so much more
I turned to go, he laughed at me
Began to run again, left him behind
Behind me the thunder rolled
The storm drew near
It got darker and darker
Only me, the fear, the tears
I ran - ran like never before
I ran - ran where it all began
8. FALSE SECURITY
There it was, my tent
I simply jumped
I jumped
Pulled the zipper down
Felt so secure
Secure
Sure?
Until now the storm was far away
Just some sporadic thunderbolts
Until now the rain abstained
Just a few small raindrops
9. WHAT AM I DOING HERE: II. A BROAD HINT
The storm pulls my tent
The rain pushes the awning
A lightning slashes a tree
Standing very near
Now it's totally dark
In the flashing light I tremble
It won't take a long time
Though the lightnings could kill me
I clutch the poles
I know a lightning's gonna strike
But I clutch the poles
As I look up
I begin to understand
What the man on the path
Wanted to say
Suddenly it's clear
What he meant
And as I look up
I can see my end
My end, my tent, my hands...
10. OUTBURST
I hear voices outside
But I cannot understand them
The storm is too loud
But I know that I gotta get out
My grip gets stronger - get out
The tent-poles buckle - gotta get out
It cracks above me - get out
I gotta get out - get out, get out
The voices become louder
They're calling my name
They want me to get out
And I know I have to get out
The poles are bursting - get out
The awning's teared open - gotta get out
The rain falls in - get out
And now I'm out - I'm out, I'm out
The rain washes it all away
The sorrow, the problems, the fears
The people want me to come out
They are happy to see me
Now the rain abates
And the storm escapes
A last thunderbolt warns me
Not to do it again
Here I stand midst the ruins of my tent
Still holding the poles in my hands
It's the time to throw them away
And to leave this Sodom behind
The sunshine on my face
I feel like I'm reborn
The people rejoice, clap their hands and shout
As if it was a journey, my coming-out
And that's what I am: A blind traveller
Who has been on his way to hell
Without having a return-ticket
11. JUST LIKE MORNING
Beneath the leaves of a tree
Freeing itself trom the weight
I recognize a girl, lovely and small
I don't think that I've seen her before
I'm happy it's another girl
Almost the same feelings I had
When the other girl stood in front of me
This time I'm sure, I'm glad
With a shaking yell
I throw the bars away
Which were thought to be
Security...
I take her by the little hand
And go away with her
I can't believe what I lived through
And now I've found another girl
I'd never known how beautiful
The paths and meadows were
I never should have run away
When my first girl went away
With a shaking yell
I throw the bars away
Which were thought to be
Security...
12. RAIN
I hope I've never got to go back
Girl, hold me tight, make me forget
Let's get away from here real' fast
And forget what I've done wrong in the past
Thank you for it all
I love you